A Note Dedicated to late Wan Zainol Ashikeen Wan Abdullah, a.k.a Cik Nor

My tears just keep on dropping and my mind just keep on playing repeatedly the memories I had with arwah Cik Nor... Owh.. how much I miss her lately.. I just don't know why... I just know that I missed her sooo much... May her soul rest in peace among the chosen one in Jannah...

Let me talk about her... From what I remember.... She was a person who cares about others so much until she put aside her own troubles or worries... She was such a great listener and problem solver that all her niece and nephews or even her brothers and sisters came to her when they have troubles, problems or worries in their life. She will try her very best to solve people's problem, in any way she could.. anyway that you could think of... The least was by hugging her and just cry on her shoulder and she would pat on your back and said "everything will be ok... just cry and let it go... it will be ok... don't worry.." and believe me, she won't stop there. She would gather all her resources, anything at all, to help solving the problems.

She loved her family so much and we always talk and discussed about it whenever we met. Usually among her, me and Cik Ja. We will just sit and talk hours and hours on how to unite our big family.. How to make the younger generations respect and recognize the older generation. We came out with different ideas and initially, we organized a family gathering with a lot of activities just to make everyone in the family close to each other and feel and appreciate each other's existence....after the gathering, we would all shake hands, kiss and hug each other in the family... and that particular event became a tradition in WCJ - Wan Love till now... and hope the younger generations will uphold it forever... I also still remember that we published a so called "Bulletin WCJ" where we had all the news and activities and gossips about the family members and now being replaced by "WCJ Web" due to technology changes in the world... We have to follow the tech rite? (selingan sikit).

When I was in Iran, she called me and we talked sometimes for hours... She really loved her kids very much! Her kids will wear the best clothes and got the best attention from her... She was like the super-mom for her kids and super-wife for Ayah Din.. I know that she did all the errands and also the financial manager for her family.. All the time, she told me how much they wanted another daughter, not that she didn't love her sons and daughter, in fact she loved them more than anything in the world, just they wanted for another one, another girl... and finally, one day, she called me happily to say that she was pregnant and this time, a girl! And the excitement goes on and on every-time we talked or write emails... And then, the time came... her labour moments...

I was already in Malaysia, I talked to her via the phone the night before she went for the labour.. She told me that she felt afraid and nervous to go to the labour this time and didn't know why.. She also said that she had so much problems (other people's, not hers) which hasn't settled and how much she wanted settled all and clear her mind and just forget about everything.. I told her that she's gonna be alright just don't think about anything... and she's gonna come out from the labour safe with her new baby girl in her hands, I promise!... But it didn't happen that way. God had different agenda for her. Something terrible had happened, and that something took her away FOREVER from all of us and from her kids.... and she didn't even had the chance to see her baby girl.... During the labour, her brain didn't receive the oxygen supply for 3 -5 minutes and she suffered from brain death and all that we know, she went into coma and deep sleep for a very long time (until the time she was taken from us).

After sometime, we brought her back to her hometown, Kampung Sireh and everyone in the WCJ family, took their turn to take care of her.. from bathing, to cleaning, to feeding, to doing suction from her airway, everything.... We all did it because of our love for her... Everyone in the family volunteered, and not even a single exclusion. The one who lives in KL came back to KB during their turn to take care of her... We were all hoping for her to get better and open her eyes again.. but God loves her more than us.... He one day, Ease Cik Nor from her sufferings and took her to be with Him in Jannah (I strongly believe so)...

She was one of the greatest human being who I ever knew and she left a very big hole in my heart and in the hearts that she loved / loved her when she went to her final destination... Till now, the hole is still there and no one can replace her in my heart coz she was very special to me.... You were like everybody's best friend and were always there for us... Cik Nor, may you rest in peace and I LOVE YOU!! Al-Fatihah...

This song is dedicated to her....